Ольга ~7~ Дятлик

Раптом чую електро виконання лакрімози і вмить спогадами поринаю у 2014 і 15й роки… чорна сукня, чорний піджак, чорний … театр, двадцятитисячні похорони … похмура погода… глибокий сум і тривога… похорони, гіркі сльози, приторний запах мільйонних квітів … гарні хлопці в камуфляжних формах, їхні глибокі мовчазні погляди… моросливий дощ, військовий ешалон на залізничній колії, запах вогню і гарячий чай, крепкі обійми, гарячі руки, сині очі, сумні посмішки… безсонні ночі … невизначеність … сім’ї загиблих, воля до боротьби за пам’ять їхніх рідних… біль і смуток рідних… глибокий ніжний погляд… надія… любов, не такі сумні посмішки, натхнення жити, сила до боротьби … перша річниця розстрілу, Майдан, Реквієм, Євген Нищук, пам’ятне мовчання тисяч, промені Гідності, червоні ліхтарі на Інститутській, мороз, сльози, друзі загиблих… безлюдний вечірній Київ… порожній нічний готель… поминальна зустріч… глибокий ніжний погляд… голубі очі…  надія… любов, не такі сумні посмішки, натхнення жити, сила до боротьби …

Lacrimosa. Memories of the Maidan and the beginning of the war

In this crazy busy Universe with so many tasks to complete, we long for a quiet time alone. But when we stay alone in a quiet place, it is not always easy to accept our aloneness and to enjoy solitude to the fullest. Staying in the monastery is a chance to see ourselves from God’s perspective: broken and beautiful, mournful and blessed, dependent and strong, weak and still able to receive care and love of others.

I like writings about hospitality by Henri Nouwen in his “Bread for the journey”. Henri writes: “Every good relationship between two or more people, whether it is friendship, marriage or community, creates space where strangers can enter and become friends. Good relatioships are hospitable… Hospitality is more than an expression of love for the guest. It is also and foremost an expression of love between the hosts”.

I’ve seen this kind of hospitality and love in Cetinje monastery (Montenegro) and this hospitality was so life-giving for me. I believe that God inspires Christians to do things, like asking a stranger to join for a cup of tea or coffee, for a meal together. Sometimes we all have moments when we are so eager to give up, to turn around and walk away from some people or place. And sometimes we are blessed enough to have someone around to stop us from this decision. And when we stay and allow ourselves to be weak, to be broken, to mourn and to be dependent on someone’s care, then we cry and then we get rid of our illusions, hurt feelings and ruined trust & hopes [Henri Nouwen’s idea on the “Road to Emmaus”]. And when we see ourselves at our lowest moments and allow our closest people to see us that way – that moment could become a starting point for us to move forward. Move forward towards ourselves and God, towards this healthy solitude, that heals and helps us to see real Hope in Jesus Christ, not in our own strength.

Sometimes we do not know (and maybe will never know on this Earth) why things happen in our lives in the way they happen… But as my new and great friend Father Stephan says: we need to learn to respect ourself, to close some life pages as soon as possible, and to send some people (or/and events) to oblivion. Because if we do so and allow God to take care of us, He will give us better people and better things in future life. God will help us to be strong again and to overcome difficult experience and to have joy in our hearts and souls again.

Adriatic sea, mountains and cliffs, steep roads and wonderful views. Delicious hot “regular coffee”, bitter cold tonic. Supportive look, listening friend and silent prayers in beautiful ancient monasteries. God is amazing! so are His people.

As Montenegrian wisdom says: Because when you’re sad, then you’re ugly:) So let’s be happy and beautiful. Let’s embrace our aloneness and enjoy solitude to the fullest.  Because in the end, only “good people are not afraid of love” as my friend Father Stephan says.

It was a great pleasure to take part in the photo shoot of a new collection of wedding dresses CUTE TIFFANY.  Looking back on my busy year of life, I am happy that I took a chance to Try New things in my life. On the last day of winter 2018 I was flying back from Germany from medical examinations. I had a tight schedule to take a flight and to catch a night train to get home in time and to travel to a different city in early morning. But my flight from Frankfurt was canceled, and when I got to Kyiv my luggage was somewhere lost in Amsterdam. I tried to catch my night train by taxi, but I failed. It was snowy/stormy late night of  the first day of Spring. It was dangerous adventure, but I made it home safe by the morning. Shower, painkillers, good coffee and professional makeup made their best and I got a chance to try myself as a model. Well, it’s such a hard work, especially in a cold snowy first day of spring! But I enjoyed it a lot. It’s interesting to see myself from a different perspective:).

Першого дня Весни 2018 я мала унікальну можливість – взяти участь у фотосесії нової колекції весільних суконь рівненської майстрині. Світлана створила унікальний бренд весільних суконь, який з часом став унікальним не лише в Україні, а й в Європі та Північній Америці. Ммм, це просто божественне відчуття, коли вдягаєш ці неймовірно якісні сукні з вишуканого дорогого матеріалу. Всім красуням рекомендую  З минулої осені і у моєму гардеробі є одна вечірня розкішна сукня Cute Tiffany, яка була створена спеціально для мене 

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